Dalam mimpiku, aku berjalan menembus hutan, mencari sesuatu.
Hutan itu luas dan luar biasa indahnya.

Di dalam pencarianku kudapatkan diriku di dalam sejumlah situasi
di mana aku merasa betul-betul tersesat dan bingung,
tak dapat memutuskan bagaimana melangkah maju.

Dengan cara yang sulit dipercaya,
pada masing-masing momen tersebut,
seakan-akan sudah direncanakan,
seseorang muncul entah dari mana...
untuk memperjelas ke mana aku harus pergi berikutnya.

Aku tidak pernah sadar akan objek pencarianku,
tetapi mimpi itu meninggalkan dalam diriku perasaan sangat ringan dan percaya diri....

[dikutip dari sebuah novel...]

Tam..tam...tamtam.... My friend get wedding!!

Wuu, such a strange feeling... seems like you just laugh and cry with her yesterday, and know she's standing in her wedding gown....with her husband..yes, HUSBAND!!

What will you feel if u were me??
Maybe:
1. when will my turn??
2. ci, i don't want that kind of gown in my wedding!
3. I want that man to be my husband! hihi... :P

btw, i want my wedding full of WHITE.....kyahahahaha.. :D

Today feels so ackward.... i think i got my self a "train lag"..:P Today i woke up on 4 am and went to the stasiun right away... Woowww, this is the farest distance i have to go just to get on my classes... phiuh... tiring day!!! 

Today is another wonderful day simply just:
1. I didn't late to my class... 07.00 Am..!! haha, i get it under control
2. Finally, after about two weeks and a half, i spoke with him..hehe..phiuh..it feels good..
3. I just bought a new shoe... sport one, coz all my shoe is -sweet -little-shoe-..so u can imagine how rain can really be hard on it! And these months are the rainy season...especially in Bandung...It rains everyday! (but i spend a lot of money on that shoe, i have to find part timejob unless my account in Bank will soon be = almost ZERRO :P )
4. I bought some vegetables and also garlic plus onion.... so tonight i will cook some delicious food... yummy... ^-^
5. I feel very good today....... looking good, feeling good...... what else a woman can expect? :)

If it's wrong to tell the truth, what am i suppose to do...?? coz all i ever want is speak my mind.....

That is a line that i cut from the newest song from Blue...called Guilty....
Hey, do i feel guilty?? No i'm not..... why should i?

The truth is, i feel like i can not express what's trully deeply on my mind! And it's making me sick...
What's wrong with truth, hah?? Why a lot of people prefer to say nice things (but grumble inside) rather than say the truth all the time....

Phiuh..phiuh....human.... always hard to guess..

 

Have you ever heard that song (read the title will you!) ??
That is a soundtrack of a mandarin serial, dorama (dorama isn't it???) called Dolphin Bay (or something familiar with that.)... don't know why, felt like that song reflects my feling right now......
It's been a very long journey...since the last time a updated this blog.... anyone misses me?? hehe.. :P

Opening ceremony (last entry)...wooo... seems like years ago..
After that tremendous-but almost fail ceremony there had been a lot of things happened.... (when i say a lot, I mean A LOT!!)

For instance, i finally go home on vacation....
phiuhhh..hahahaha..what a vacation... I filled my days with boring stuff, wake up, watch television, take a bath,taking care my foster brother, take the laundry to the washing machine, eating (becoming the only subject of my days...well, majority), went out (i call it, being a babysitter...!!! )
Oh God....Only you who knows that i was so bore!
There's no reliable computer in da house, no internet conection, no transportation available only for me... no books...no movies....... wuaaaa now i can define disaster!

And to complete my boredom, i spent a lot of money having internet conection in the nearest warnet....
and u know what? It crashed my USB Disk Drive!

ugh!

nanti malam pembukaan kaderisasi....
a lot of job....
a lot of problem....
seperti biasa, terjadi beberapa hal yang merepotkan.. :(
Duh, takut kalo nanti jadinya mess up nih...

hari senin depan itb bakal libur isra' mi'raj.
Sebenermya dah dari minggu lalu papa nelpon dini supaya pulang ke jogja.
Soalnya papa mau ke jog n pengennya kami semua bisa kumpul sekeluarga (hal yg jarang terjadi sejak dini kul di bdg).

Tapi tentu aja, i can'.... hari minggu ini bakal ada pembukaan kaderisasi... hari jum'at sabtu minggu sampai sorenya ada diklat kaderisasi dari KM......... phiuuuhhh
Mana mungkin aku bisa ninggalin???

Udah g keitung berapa kali papa nyuruh dini pulang, dan berapa kali itu pulalah dini ga bisa menyanggupinya....

Sebenernya, i want 2 go home.... very much....
Liburan semester dini cuma 2 kali @ 2 hari!!! Bayangin, terakhir kali cum apas lebaran dini bisa pulang more than 2 days... bahkan libur semesterpun tak libur. hanya pul 4 hariiii

huaaahahahahhahaahaa... tawa getir....... mencoba menghibur diri supaya g stress....... ;(

Kemaren sabtu ke tobucil lagiii, dan seperti biasa dini gak tahan kalo deket2 sama banyak buku bagus kaya gitu, bawaannya pengen belii terus.. Dan akhirnya, i've bought Sheila.... Itu loh kisah nyata tentang seorang anak perempuan umur 6 tahun yang sakit mental (dia pernah nyulik anak laki2 umur 3 tahun, terus diiket di pohon dan dibakar idup-idup!!!!!!! untung anak laki2 itu ga mati..).

Dan sekarang baru nyampe bab 3..... maklum banyak tugas..... tapi gak tahan untuk gak ngebaca nya nih......

Duh, godaan....... :D

Alhamdulillah, kemaren pra kaderisasi berlangsung dg lancar.
Walau ada beberapa kesalahan koordianasi tapi gak mengganggu jalannya acara secara keseluruhan.

Seneng, tapi capek..... huix...
Pulang dari kampus dini mesti pergi ke M(yg jalannya jauuuh bgt ituh, dan mendaki segala) dulu... dan di sana sampe sore pula...
Padahal udah ngantux dan kepala udah pusiiiinggg.
Nyampe kosan, sebenernya laper bgt (wong, dari pagi gak makan... hix...), tapi ngantux nya lebih parah.... Akhirnya tidur deh.....

Sebenarnya cuma pengen tidur sampe jam 7 doang...(untung lagi gak sholat...  :P), tapi dini sengaja gak masang alarm supaya tidurnya gak keganggu... Kalo keterusan tidur paling juga sampe jam 9.... Mikirnya sih gitu, tapiiiiiiiii ternyata bener-bener ngantux n ketidurannya gak tanggungg2......!!

Bangun-bangun udah jam 3 pagiiii..... !!
Wua... panik!!!!  Tugas IMK belom seleseee... belom nyuciiii, belom makan dari kemaren (masuk angin deh.. :P)... wuaaaa... parah.....
Mana kamar udah kaya kapal pecah lagi.... hu..hu..hu...

Dan akhirnya, berangkat kuliah dg sangat terburu-buru, acak-acakan,dll....... (kul jam 8, berangkat jam 8 juga hehehe).
Untuuung aja di jalan ketemu ma Sammy... jadi bisa nebeng deh.....huahaahahahahha.....

So, let's start this day with......... MEETING!!! BUG!